I sat on a space rocket and end up lying on the bed.

Is it that going through your life without any dream is lifeless?
I never taught how to be an ambitious person.Every demand from them is to be perfect in everything.I never question myself before what and how will I be doing in the next 10 or 20 years.
But somehow I couldn't blame this on others as this is my own life.You want it,you take it.
I'm just a torchlight which shine dim light.Never know how to shine the path that I want to take.
In a midst.Hiding behind the dark cloud which we wouldn't know when it will pour the water droplets to the ground.

Why sleeping beauty has to be kissed by the prince in order to live again? Why must everything run according to the what-should-the-plot-be?
I realise myself is not the same myself again.Perhaps the age 18,it really change my thoughts and views.

Water isn't pure anymore, Chelsea isn't blue anymore, kids are not playing blocks anymore and everything is not the same anymore.

Insomnia.
Things were just popping out.Hectic schedule.Miserable life.

Bla~Doze off~

The stars seems to vanish whenever I headed to the sky.

I regret.Like seriously.

If time machine were ever made,
If the clock could be rewind,
If my brain has the pause button,
Everything might turn out differently.

Wish I could change the hands of time, maybe then you could be mine.

It's been a couple of month since I update my blog.Seriously,the worst uncured disease in this world is laziness.I wonder what is the pathogen of this infection.
Been really busy for this few months.I couldn't up to date myself with my friends,entertainment,social issues,and bla bla bla.Just got over my semester exam and I swear I did a pretty bad job on it.The mood seems not so right after spm.I got everything jumble up.I'm kind of having twice thinking sometimes whether I pick up the right decision.But I still can't find the torchlight which just can blink once to peep through my path.Sigh.

Holidays are meant to be enjoy and relaxing.But this doesn't fulfill me.I want to hide somewhere underground and away from those people.This may be a good peace though.I'm still mad at myself.I'm still guilty over it.I'm still holding all the blames.I can't bear to see how they do not show their real feeling by just express their disappointment.I hate myself for not doing anything better.I might be the youngest but my heart doesn't represent the age.And maybe that is because I'm not good in expressing myself.I don't like to give out my real feelings.It simply indicates that I'm weak and a loser.And I hope you do understand it through your thoughtfulness.

Tired.I'm getting lesser sleep than before.Everything is upside down.I wish to return back.
College seems fine for me.But I always need time to adapt to new environment.You can't change everything in a minute and this is why human is different from non living things.
By the way,funny things still happen.It does make you laugh for a minute.
The keyboard shall rest now.Till then.


What a sentimental post.

He changed,she changed,they changed.But that doesn't mean I changed.

CAL students were having their holiday since last thursday.Thanks to the principal,Mr.Arnanda.We were actually given 2 weeks holiday as what Mr.Rajah said.But things changed all of sudden and we got a postponed holiday instead.
Anyway,this is the first break that we had.Our class were having trip to Genting Highland during the break.I was certain that I can go and even pay the accomodation money.But I gotta pull back in last minute coz I can't find any transportation to the bus station since Rachel and Wei Wei not going.Shawn was begging and convincing me to go but I just couldn't.So sorry people >.< Hope you guys have fun there!

The day before holiday started,we had a great stomach pain from laughing off too much.James and Weng Ming is just too...........ROFL xD

Jovan: "You got balls or not?"
James: "I got one.But after mitosis,I got two balls." @_@
Jovan: "How I know you got balls or not??"
James: "Weng Ming will help me to check it!"
Weng Ming: "F*** you!"

The whole class burst out laughing and we almost broke all the walls! Laughing too hard and too much XD

Sigh.Piles of assignment are waiting for us to sign on.The lecturers are mad.Too MAD.Hope we are able to hand in our project on time.God bless.PM12 fighting! =)

You told me it was a sunshine day but there was thunderstorm hidden behind the cloud.

God knows why I'm here today.3 months passed.Time flies as the wind blows.A year before,I was throwing all sort of complains about the great Spm.It had passed for a few months ago.But now it is back to haunt us again.And perhaps it might haunt me for the rest of my life.I'm really 'thankful' that I'm gifted of 2 biggest phobia ever in my life.First,my hands and legs tremble whenever I'm taking any results.Second,everything turn upside down when I see dentist.Butterflies will be everywhere in my stomach whenever one of this occurred.The world seems spinning and topple off.

Things usually turn out to be unexpected than you expected.And that is when everything goes wrong.Sigh.Seriously,I wouldn't want to spend any single cent from my parents.I do really mind it.Dad is already 60 years old now.And I still spend his money like how's the waterfall flowing non-stop.I'm an idiotic.What a shameful daugther.I still remember how mum used to drop me off at tuition and bring me home by walking a distance of miles.And this is all for me.What damn am I if I disappoint her? Guilty and regrets.And probably they're right.I'm just an useless trash can.So I might drop A-level since I can't fullfil it and there is no point wasting money.Money is gold and time is money.

God knows whether I'm still alive tomorrow.Sighhh.
Be strong.Don't tear.



Eyes got wet.

I think fish is nice, but then I think that rain is wet, so who am I to judge?

It's been hectic everyday now.I got not much time to play.I got not much time to facebooking.I got no much time to crap.I got no much time to BLOG.
I started to hate college life which is more more tensed up.Lecturers are always squeezing you with loads of homework.And the bad thing is we have to log in our BB7 everyday to check out homework.Damn it.I hate this kind of computer job which is an abandon and unfairness to the books and papers that we're suppose to use it.Save the earth.Go green.This is all nonsense.Things are making more difficult instead of simplify our work.

There is a girl in our class starts to irritate me.She speak in a soft voice and has no patience whenever you tell her to repeat what she said.She is so passive and nobody in our class dare to near her.She's kind of living in her own world.By the way,she also called Siew Yi.Exactly the same name and behaviour of our 5Sc1 classmate,Chua Siew Yi.Still,I like our old 5Sc1's Siew Yi.
I dislike our bio lecturer.I don't know what is wrong with him.He doesn't seem to reach the age of menopause yet.Huhhh.Sigh.

Went for the driving test last monday.Finally got a legal driving license.There is no more begging people around to fetch me out or buy me supper in the middle of night.I'm going to take car key and *brooommm* drive off.
There will be a break in april.I hope to spend my holiday leisurely with fun.And after that,I might just start my real studying.I'm still in the midst now.I was keep reminiscence about my secondary life.How I wish I could just click a button and this revolve back to the past.

I'm having another two class test next week.And I still can't figure it out what thinking skill is and what is the purpose for us to learn.The subject is like so dead.@_@

Till then.



And I miss the boys.