The moon and stars used to be my best friend.

I know it's been a long time.But I didn't forget to visit blogs.
Screw the 18 months programme.Alright,we're ending it in 3 months.Super senior is graduating soon.

Will try to update more.Believe me.

Snow in summer and hot sun in winter.

Hey it's been a while since I visit this page.I mean my own blog.
Things had been so crazy for the last 2 months.The first major exam drove us mad yet survive a little.The last one will not leave any chance for survival.College is fine for me.Still, those chasing of wild dog of lessons and the assignments killer lead to you in a suffocating minute.Exactly 6 months from now,I'll be waving to my mates and the cold building of TCSJ with no escalator.For a moment,I'm so gonna miss those moment.For the next minute, my another part of life begins again.I'm still in an undirectional path which lead no where in the middle of sea.

I took a wrong path with a dim torch and yet I have to move on with the rest of battery life in the torch.I wonder it will glows till the end.
All I want is to lead a normal and happy life.Things seems evolved the other way round.They seems not to understand the reason of me not following their choice.Their fear,indecision and hesitation is all I understood.But different people have different shoes.Try to wear mine and I wear yours,the fitness of foot isn't the same.There are things which can't be compressed and stretched.It will eventually reach a breaking point.
Hope someday they will comprehend and accept what is gonna be.

It's been a year.It seems like I just ended my major exam,SPM in last month.A few more days and a full 18 years of living in this world will be hitting soon.19 years old.I didn't expect that I will reach this age in that fast.People really do grumble when their root haven't grab the soil and upset when their leaf is withered.

Christmas will be a tiny different this year.Celebration with family may be a fun thing(hope so).All I want for Christmas is a day filled with joyous moment.Last night,I dreamt a Rudolph rode by Uncle Santa and invaded into my room.He gave me a piece of advice and I seems to grasp about it.Hmmm...
Anyway,wish everyone an early Merry Christmas :)

Rolling ball become roly poly.

Everything is moving non stop.Hectic year.Miserable schedule.Unbearable moment.
Things past.Shall update soon during the holiday.
Sorry and thanks.


By the way,I've promise myself,I will get a set of drum and pick up some lesson as soon as I accomplish my a level.



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I sat on a space rocket and end up lying on the bed.

Is it that going through your life without any dream is lifeless?
I never taught how to be an ambitious person.Every demand from them is to be perfect in everything.I never question myself before what and how will I be doing in the next 10 or 20 years.
But somehow I couldn't blame this on others as this is my own life.You want it,you take it.
I'm just a torchlight which shine dim light.Never know how to shine the path that I want to take.
In a midst.Hiding behind the dark cloud which we wouldn't know when it will pour the water droplets to the ground.

Why sleeping beauty has to be kissed by the prince in order to live again? Why must everything run according to the what-should-the-plot-be?
I realise myself is not the same myself again.Perhaps the age 18,it really change my thoughts and views.

Water isn't pure anymore, Chelsea isn't blue anymore, kids are not playing blocks anymore and everything is not the same anymore.

Insomnia.
Things were just popping out.Hectic schedule.Miserable life.

Bla~Doze off~

The stars seems to vanish whenever I headed to the sky.

I regret.Like seriously.

If time machine were ever made,
If the clock could be rewind,
If my brain has the pause button,
Everything might turn out differently.

Wish I could change the hands of time, maybe then you could be mine.

It's been a couple of month since I update my blog.Seriously,the worst uncured disease in this world is laziness.I wonder what is the pathogen of this infection.
Been really busy for this few months.I couldn't up to date myself with my friends,entertainment,social issues,and bla bla bla.Just got over my semester exam and I swear I did a pretty bad job on it.The mood seems not so right after spm.I got everything jumble up.I'm kind of having twice thinking sometimes whether I pick up the right decision.But I still can't find the torchlight which just can blink once to peep through my path.Sigh.

Holidays are meant to be enjoy and relaxing.But this doesn't fulfill me.I want to hide somewhere underground and away from those people.This may be a good peace though.I'm still mad at myself.I'm still guilty over it.I'm still holding all the blames.I can't bear to see how they do not show their real feeling by just express their disappointment.I hate myself for not doing anything better.I might be the youngest but my heart doesn't represent the age.And maybe that is because I'm not good in expressing myself.I don't like to give out my real feelings.It simply indicates that I'm weak and a loser.And I hope you do understand it through your thoughtfulness.

Tired.I'm getting lesser sleep than before.Everything is upside down.I wish to return back.
College seems fine for me.But I always need time to adapt to new environment.You can't change everything in a minute and this is why human is different from non living things.
By the way,funny things still happen.It does make you laugh for a minute.
The keyboard shall rest now.Till then.


What a sentimental post.