Wish I could change the hands of time, maybe then you could be mine.

It's been a couple of month since I update my blog.Seriously,the worst uncured disease in this world is laziness.I wonder what is the pathogen of this infection.
Been really busy for this few months.I couldn't up to date myself with my friends,entertainment,social issues,and bla bla bla.Just got over my semester exam and I swear I did a pretty bad job on it.The mood seems not so right after spm.I got everything jumble up.I'm kind of having twice thinking sometimes whether I pick up the right decision.But I still can't find the torchlight which just can blink once to peep through my path.Sigh.

Holidays are meant to be enjoy and relaxing.But this doesn't fulfill me.I want to hide somewhere underground and away from those people.This may be a good peace though.I'm still mad at myself.I'm still guilty over it.I'm still holding all the blames.I can't bear to see how they do not show their real feeling by just express their disappointment.I hate myself for not doing anything better.I might be the youngest but my heart doesn't represent the age.And maybe that is because I'm not good in expressing myself.I don't like to give out my real feelings.It simply indicates that I'm weak and a loser.And I hope you do understand it through your thoughtfulness.

Tired.I'm getting lesser sleep than before.Everything is upside down.I wish to return back.
College seems fine for me.But I always need time to adapt to new environment.You can't change everything in a minute and this is why human is different from non living things.
By the way,funny things still happen.It does make you laugh for a minute.
The keyboard shall rest now.Till then.


What a sentimental post.