Snow in summer and hot sun in winter.

Hey it's been a while since I visit this page.I mean my own blog.
Things had been so crazy for the last 2 months.The first major exam drove us mad yet survive a little.The last one will not leave any chance for survival.College is fine for me.Still, those chasing of wild dog of lessons and the assignments killer lead to you in a suffocating minute.Exactly 6 months from now,I'll be waving to my mates and the cold building of TCSJ with no escalator.For a moment,I'm so gonna miss those moment.For the next minute, my another part of life begins again.I'm still in an undirectional path which lead no where in the middle of sea.

I took a wrong path with a dim torch and yet I have to move on with the rest of battery life in the torch.I wonder it will glows till the end.
All I want is to lead a normal and happy life.Things seems evolved the other way round.They seems not to understand the reason of me not following their choice.Their fear,indecision and hesitation is all I understood.But different people have different shoes.Try to wear mine and I wear yours,the fitness of foot isn't the same.There are things which can't be compressed and stretched.It will eventually reach a breaking point.
Hope someday they will comprehend and accept what is gonna be.

It's been a year.It seems like I just ended my major exam,SPM in last month.A few more days and a full 18 years of living in this world will be hitting soon.19 years old.I didn't expect that I will reach this age in that fast.People really do grumble when their root haven't grab the soil and upset when their leaf is withered.

Christmas will be a tiny different this year.Celebration with family may be a fun thing(hope so).All I want for Christmas is a day filled with joyous moment.Last night,I dreamt a Rudolph rode by Uncle Santa and invaded into my room.He gave me a piece of advice and I seems to grasp about it.Hmmm...
Anyway,wish everyone an early Merry Christmas :)

Rolling ball become roly poly.

Everything is moving non stop.Hectic year.Miserable schedule.Unbearable moment.
Things past.Shall update soon during the holiday.
Sorry and thanks.


By the way,I've promise myself,I will get a set of drum and pick up some lesson as soon as I accomplish my a level.



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I sat on a space rocket and end up lying on the bed.

Is it that going through your life without any dream is lifeless?
I never taught how to be an ambitious person.Every demand from them is to be perfect in everything.I never question myself before what and how will I be doing in the next 10 or 20 years.
But somehow I couldn't blame this on others as this is my own life.You want it,you take it.
I'm just a torchlight which shine dim light.Never know how to shine the path that I want to take.
In a midst.Hiding behind the dark cloud which we wouldn't know when it will pour the water droplets to the ground.

Why sleeping beauty has to be kissed by the prince in order to live again? Why must everything run according to the what-should-the-plot-be?
I realise myself is not the same myself again.Perhaps the age 18,it really change my thoughts and views.

Water isn't pure anymore, Chelsea isn't blue anymore, kids are not playing blocks anymore and everything is not the same anymore.

Insomnia.
Things were just popping out.Hectic schedule.Miserable life.

Bla~Doze off~

The stars seems to vanish whenever I headed to the sky.

I regret.Like seriously.

If time machine were ever made,
If the clock could be rewind,
If my brain has the pause button,
Everything might turn out differently.

Wish I could change the hands of time, maybe then you could be mine.

It's been a couple of month since I update my blog.Seriously,the worst uncured disease in this world is laziness.I wonder what is the pathogen of this infection.
Been really busy for this few months.I couldn't up to date myself with my friends,entertainment,social issues,and bla bla bla.Just got over my semester exam and I swear I did a pretty bad job on it.The mood seems not so right after spm.I got everything jumble up.I'm kind of having twice thinking sometimes whether I pick up the right decision.But I still can't find the torchlight which just can blink once to peep through my path.Sigh.

Holidays are meant to be enjoy and relaxing.But this doesn't fulfill me.I want to hide somewhere underground and away from those people.This may be a good peace though.I'm still mad at myself.I'm still guilty over it.I'm still holding all the blames.I can't bear to see how they do not show their real feeling by just express their disappointment.I hate myself for not doing anything better.I might be the youngest but my heart doesn't represent the age.And maybe that is because I'm not good in expressing myself.I don't like to give out my real feelings.It simply indicates that I'm weak and a loser.And I hope you do understand it through your thoughtfulness.

Tired.I'm getting lesser sleep than before.Everything is upside down.I wish to return back.
College seems fine for me.But I always need time to adapt to new environment.You can't change everything in a minute and this is why human is different from non living things.
By the way,funny things still happen.It does make you laugh for a minute.
The keyboard shall rest now.Till then.


What a sentimental post.

He changed,she changed,they changed.But that doesn't mean I changed.

CAL students were having their holiday since last thursday.Thanks to the principal,Mr.Arnanda.We were actually given 2 weeks holiday as what Mr.Rajah said.But things changed all of sudden and we got a postponed holiday instead.
Anyway,this is the first break that we had.Our class were having trip to Genting Highland during the break.I was certain that I can go and even pay the accomodation money.But I gotta pull back in last minute coz I can't find any transportation to the bus station since Rachel and Wei Wei not going.Shawn was begging and convincing me to go but I just couldn't.So sorry people >.< Hope you guys have fun there!

The day before holiday started,we had a great stomach pain from laughing off too much.James and Weng Ming is just too...........ROFL xD

Jovan: "You got balls or not?"
James: "I got one.But after mitosis,I got two balls." @_@
Jovan: "How I know you got balls or not??"
James: "Weng Ming will help me to check it!"
Weng Ming: "F*** you!"

The whole class burst out laughing and we almost broke all the walls! Laughing too hard and too much XD

Sigh.Piles of assignment are waiting for us to sign on.The lecturers are mad.Too MAD.Hope we are able to hand in our project on time.God bless.PM12 fighting! =)

You told me it was a sunshine day but there was thunderstorm hidden behind the cloud.

God knows why I'm here today.3 months passed.Time flies as the wind blows.A year before,I was throwing all sort of complains about the great Spm.It had passed for a few months ago.But now it is back to haunt us again.And perhaps it might haunt me for the rest of my life.I'm really 'thankful' that I'm gifted of 2 biggest phobia ever in my life.First,my hands and legs tremble whenever I'm taking any results.Second,everything turn upside down when I see dentist.Butterflies will be everywhere in my stomach whenever one of this occurred.The world seems spinning and topple off.

Things usually turn out to be unexpected than you expected.And that is when everything goes wrong.Sigh.Seriously,I wouldn't want to spend any single cent from my parents.I do really mind it.Dad is already 60 years old now.And I still spend his money like how's the waterfall flowing non-stop.I'm an idiotic.What a shameful daugther.I still remember how mum used to drop me off at tuition and bring me home by walking a distance of miles.And this is all for me.What damn am I if I disappoint her? Guilty and regrets.And probably they're right.I'm just an useless trash can.So I might drop A-level since I can't fullfil it and there is no point wasting money.Money is gold and time is money.

God knows whether I'm still alive tomorrow.Sighhh.
Be strong.Don't tear.



Eyes got wet.

I think fish is nice, but then I think that rain is wet, so who am I to judge?

It's been hectic everyday now.I got not much time to play.I got not much time to facebooking.I got no much time to crap.I got no much time to BLOG.
I started to hate college life which is more more tensed up.Lecturers are always squeezing you with loads of homework.And the bad thing is we have to log in our BB7 everyday to check out homework.Damn it.I hate this kind of computer job which is an abandon and unfairness to the books and papers that we're suppose to use it.Save the earth.Go green.This is all nonsense.Things are making more difficult instead of simplify our work.

There is a girl in our class starts to irritate me.She speak in a soft voice and has no patience whenever you tell her to repeat what she said.She is so passive and nobody in our class dare to near her.She's kind of living in her own world.By the way,she also called Siew Yi.Exactly the same name and behaviour of our 5Sc1 classmate,Chua Siew Yi.Still,I like our old 5Sc1's Siew Yi.
I dislike our bio lecturer.I don't know what is wrong with him.He doesn't seem to reach the age of menopause yet.Huhhh.Sigh.

Went for the driving test last monday.Finally got a legal driving license.There is no more begging people around to fetch me out or buy me supper in the middle of night.I'm going to take car key and *brooommm* drive off.
There will be a break in april.I hope to spend my holiday leisurely with fun.And after that,I might just start my real studying.I'm still in the midst now.I was keep reminiscence about my secondary life.How I wish I could just click a button and this revolve back to the past.

I'm having another two class test next week.And I still can't figure it out what thinking skill is and what is the purpose for us to learn.The subject is like so dead.@_@

Till then.



And I miss the boys.

The Atlantic ice sinks into the water and polar bear freezes.

Been busy of college stuff for a few weeks.I did a lot of crazy stuffs and it's never stop.Hectic.It's been a busy sunny day for couple of days.The Sun in Subang seems to reflect more heat rays than in bah kut teh town.Days goes by.But things never change.There is a few mad boys in our class which laugh in a sudden in the middle of the lesson.God knows why.Some of the lecturers are awesome but some are troublesome.Mr Raja is a stern guy who bully us everyday in order to satisfy his feeling.He is a troublemaker.He can make everyone in the class dare not to swallow their saliva and make your heart pumping not consistently.This is so not good.

Subramaniam is our mentor.But we call him as Mr Subra.He is a funny man which cracks a lot of jokes but he is not a reliable and good lecturer as what my brother told me.We got Mr Lau as our maths teacher again.But not the delta Mr Low.He is totally opposite from Mr Low.He is somehow...should I say he is cute? He is kind of innocent.Hmmm.

People say college will be the most enjoyable moment in your life.But I think the description is a bit wrong in terms of the adjectives.You get accumulated by stacks of assignments everyday which is not fun at all.The lecturers have no humanity sense yet we're not a robot in the factory.
Hope time will freeze in jovial moment and gloomy moment will just fly away.Cross finger.x.x

I've been praying everyday for the happiness that all the people I know.God bless you.
Cheers!

You seems like a firefighter that extinguishes the burning fire in my heart.

The things I find funny,
People don’t laugh.
Things I don’t find funny,
People always laugh.
The funny thing is
When I find things funny,
People laugh.

We know the speed of light,but what is the speed of dark?

Now I feel the time is moving too fast.And somehow anything can happen in advance.It seems that we're unconscious that what may happen to us in anytime.We've the time to prepare for it,but do we've the heart to get ready? We just have to endure the pain.Let the seconds,minutes,hours and days pass by us from day to day till it remains calm.God will be at the side of the needs.Recharge their strength.Delete their fear.They're everything meant for us.

Dyed my hair last weekend.I don't really know what colour it is.But it just match with man yee's hair.By the way,thanks to her for accompanying me and recommend me a good saloon.But seems like it didn't make any difference of me being mature.Sometimes I really do blame my parents for giving me an immature face.Anyway,I just gotta accept the fact.

Now,I do feel the moment of being left away from school.We did the same routine for the past 11 years.Every morning,I will be waiting for my uncle bus.The birds chirping,the dark purple blue glooming sky and the yawning from the students.Morning is just a day that everyone feels gloomy with it.Monday was the day I used to have Grace Tay's class.I still remember how we gotta rush with the time writing an essay with the length of 450+ words in a given time.And I miss her sexy voice now.Tuesday is an hectic day for me.I hate Tuesday.Wednesday,I'll have no tuition but yet we go back from school at 2:15pm.Thursday is usually an enjoyable day.The feeling of turning weekends soon.Mr Sugu will crumple dozens of work for us to do.I started to miss his botak head.Friday.I love Friday and I hate Friday.Miss linda with her slow motion of teaching Chemistry.Still,I'm amused with her knowledge in Chem.She really does know a lot.Mr Low which I used to call him Pondan Low,is now being miss.Truthfully,I really dislike sometimes how he waste the time presenting his lectures.Students starts to snooze,throw pen on each other,grabbing each other leg,day dreaming,folding aeroplanes and sketch the vandalism drawings.He just talk and talk and talk.Now,I wish I can go back to the room 16 where we usually had our add maths and sit in a deserted seat and hear his craps.Auntie fen will be his target.He is still confuse with her name and just call her either Lucy or Susie.Big joke.Huge laugh.

Next week,I'll be starting a new life in new school.It is just like a standard one kid when you're afraid of the new people around you.You'll start to cry and beg your mum not to left you in school.You'll be pulling your mum's leg and others will stare at you with strange eyes.Teacher will be comfort you with some sweets.Dad will promise to buy you a new toy or bring you to the theme park.Old times.Sweet memories.

Till then.



Select a day which you like.


P/S:After all,not all white hair guy are unapproachable :D

You snatch the beer from the drunkard and you fall with a head down.

It's a brand new year.I love new year's fireworks.But I don't like the first day of new year when you are thinking of the need to run through 365 days in a calendar.Why does the Earth take such a long time to wrap one round for the grandfather Sun? Couldn't it spin like a violent tornado?
How I wish if Professor Einstein could create a time machine for humans before he left the world.

Went to Chris house for the countdown.We played her xbox there and auntie foo was running like a mad orang utan in front of the tv.We shouldn't break old folks heart heh? I shall let her gain the victory.Steamboat is a mad stuff.For me.I love 'ta pin lou' with a bunch of friends.Great food.Great time.And I got huge strike for new year.They just simply don't comprehend you.Anyway,Happy New Year,guys! :) Give it a kiss when they are looking to the sky.Give it an engage when they are not realising.Give it a big hug and wrap yourself around them.Give it and give it.Give it everything to them.

It was the first day of new year and we killed a cluster of animals.Brother was a big hunter for the day.He suggested for a korean bbq.And we killed lamb,chickens,salmon,eel and prawns.And dad had to pay for the price.200 bucks for the poor animals.

Facebook's photo loader doesn't seems to work.So,I will just upload the picture here.You may not want to scroll through the pictures but just hold your grudge.You may puke after seeing it :)



Devils on the air.


Tiger is suppose to be friend with pooh and not molester.


Angel in mission.


Poor tiger.He need to be friend with pooh.


Different angle by who?